On the 1st November at 3:30pm my dog Georgia of 10 1/2 years, was stuck on the head by a car right in front of me and I couldn't save her. I held her for two hours in the vets while she tried to fight it and I got to spend two hours telling her just how much she meant to me, how much I loved her and how sorry I was. I've lost the one thing in the world that meant everything to me. I would have done anything for that dog and anyone who knows me knows just what an amazing dog she was. I'll never love anything like I loved my Susan Sarandon. She was my best friend. She slept in my bed, she shared my food, she had showers with me, I never went out of the house without her and now I just feel so fucking empty. She was so human like and so perfect. She knew how to cheer me up when I was sad and she knew how to make me laugh by doing her little dance. I've lost people before in my life but nothing has hurt like this had. I hate death and I hate that it's a part of life. I work with death almost everyday but you never fucking get used to it do you. I just can't stop crying. It feels like there is a huge part of me missing and I don't know how to cope. I never thought I was capable of loving something so much and I always said I couldn't live without out her and now I fucking have to. I just miss her so much.